Yes, it's that time again where I feel like just letting whatever's on my mind go. Just typing away not knowing where this entry will lead. I've grown to like it that way. I guess there's that excitement that goes along with not knowing what you can come up with on the fly. Just taking out the idea of how things are "supposed" to be and just basically flowing with whatever energy that has got me started.

It reminds me of uncertainty. That probably doesn't make any sense to you but I've realized that that's what 2009 has been about for me so far. I see myself like a tree with never ending branches. At times I feel lost within myself, in exploration mode, with curiousity leading the way. Most of the time I have no idea where it's taking me, but I know that as long as I stay "me," I'm still "home".

It's crazy how life can show you so much wonder if only you embrace uncertainty. If you can grasp that idea instead of trying to control the outcome of every decision you make, maybe you'll enjoy the ride a little more. To me, the knowing of not knowing brings about thrill and excitement. Imagine a life full of surprises. What's next? I don't know, let's find out!

Life is uncertain no matter how well we plan for it. It might sound depressing but that's actually where wonder lies. Uncertainty is wonder.

Here are a couple of lines from a song I just wrote last week called "Wonder" that I'd like to share with you.

...life remains a mystery,
the unpredictability opens doors to the world of insecurity
but freedom lies in this given state of mind
the knowing of not knowing gives purpose throughout our time
so, if you went and asked me, where am I destined to go?
I'm just enjoying the ride cause I'd rather not know...

- Pat Jamlang

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